Sensitive Bore

April 11, 2005

This was a fabulous weekend! Frank and I went out again on Saturday. He took me to this really neat little comedy club in LA. He paid for a really nice dinner and was, once again, a total gentleman. The comedy we saw was just super. It's this show called Uncabaret and it's this cool form of improve/stand-up that was really fun to watch. I think the most notable name we saw was Michael McDonald. I asked him to go to a Starflyer 59 concert with me in a couple weeks, so that should be fun. Ultimately, I'm super confused about the whole situation, so I'm just taking it as friends until something happens to make me think otherwise.

Last night Daniel and I went to Starbucks just to hang out and talk. On our way back to my car I casually asked if he wanted to go to prom with me, totally expecting him to say he was thinking about taking someone else, but instead he was like "YES! I was going to ask you!" and I felt like a total retard. But at least we got it cleared up. I guess I got really impatient or something, but it's nice to know that he was planning to ask me.

Katie // 5:30 PM

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April 04, 2005

Here's a little sneek peak at my senior project


This is the sorry state in which my cup began. At this stage it looked like it was destined for crap-dom. Mrs. Caltrider steered me in the wrong direction here.



But lo! My father steped in and set up this cool little rig for me! No more Charlie Brown pop art for this girl!


I went back to the idea that Bethany gave me a last month and did mesh and plaster strips. This stuff is amazing! It was going on so fast, I couldn't even keep up!


Progress indeed! Check out that backside!


I dip the strips in the water and then apply them to the metal frame. I hope this is blowing your mind.


After that picture was I taken I covered the outside of the cup completely and worked my way to the inside the cup. I'm not completely finished with the strips I still have about a quarter of it left. My dad helped instert a base so it's starting to look more and more like a Starbucks cup. I can't wait to get this thing finished!

Katie // 5:55 PM

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April 02, 2005

I'm sad that my spring break is coming to an end, but it's been a good one. Katie Pirtle and I went out to Hollywood on Tuesday see what was happening at Amoeba. There were so many things I wanted (as usual), but sadly I didn't feel like spending the little cash I had. Instead, I blew my money on a meat craving at Pink's Hotdogs. Later that night Katie and I went to see The Life Aquatic at the dollar theater. I love that movie. It gets better each time I see it.

Throughout the week I've been meeting with my senior project mentor trying to figure out how to get this stupid coffee cup thing to work. We gave the cardboard thing a shot, but that failed miserably. So, now I get to spend more money and do it with mesh and plaster strips. My mentor and I don't see eye-to-eye about it, and neither does my dad. It's been extremely stressful on that end.

Last night was a new experience. Daniel, Paige, Eric, and I went to the Santa Fe Cafe in Fullerton to go see David's friends play. They weren't anything special, but I really wasn't paying attention. The greatest moment was when Daniel threw-up. It was so surreal but ultimately hilarious. That was a perfect close to my spring break and I definitely want to go hang out there again.

I've been getting really stressed out at home. I love my parents dearly, but I'm ready to move out. We've always had a really normal family life, nothing bad, and they trust me and never put any big restrictions on me, but they still treat me like I'm a child. My dad is sitting here taking over my project, my artwork, and I have to fight him to leave it alone. I never want to make them upset either, which is good and bad. It keeps me out of trouble, but at the same time it keeps me from taking risks and speaking up. Now that I'm writing it out this all seems so simple, but it's all the little things that add up and make me excited about getting out of here and living on my own.

Katie // 1:39 PM

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March 28, 2005

Daniel and I went down to San Celmente today so I could get some new sandals



Then we drove around Dana Point and went to the Habor House. After lunch, we went down to the beach and found some really cool tide pools. I'm really looking forward to the rest of spring break.

Katie // 4:46 PM

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March 27, 2005

My apologies...I've been busy.(Good excuse, right?)

I was officially accepted to Humboldt, and I'm pretty sure that's where I'm going.

In other news, I had a date with Frank this past Tuesday. We went to Hollywood to go see Millions, but we missed it because of traffic. So, instead we went out to dinner at California Pizza Kitchen and saw Constantine (he was a little uncomfortable about seeing Kinsey with me, and everything else was crap) at the Mann's Chinese Theater. We walked around for a bit too. It was so much fun, and he's changed a lot since the last time we had gone out on a date (however, I don't consider those "dates" because they sucked). He paid for everything and was super sweet. He was a little timid about making a move because I think he as a little worried about the age difference, but I can totally understand that. I hope we can go out again sometime, but I wont be upset if we don't. I'm just happy to be talking with him again.

My parents and I went to Easter service at East Whittier UMC today. Sam's sermon was really...interesting. He brought up the whole Terry Schavio thing and quoted Bush on his pro-life stance. He also did a lot of John Lennon Bashing. I just didn't agree with a lot of the stuff he was saying and this time it went beyond political, it had a lot to do with the spiritual content of it. I don't know, it just rubbed me the wrong way. It was good to see everyone, though. I hadn't seen Amanda since September, so it was good to see how she was doing and catch up a little bit with her. Every time I go back to East Whittier no one really recognizes me at first glance, then they say "Oh my gosh! You look so different!" I don't really get it, I don't feel like I've changed that much in appearance...Whatever!

I started going vegetarian about three weeks ago, and that's been going really well. I've been losing quite a bit of weight which I'm more than thrilled about. I think this is the first time in my life that I've actually been losing weight. Now, don't jump all over me and give me trash about begin vegetarian, I know I bash on vegans and all that, and I'm a firm believer in meat, but I'm doing it strictly for health. I am in NO way an activist. This was just the easiest way for me to drop a few pounds and stay healthy. I had a little bit of meat this morning and it doesn't bother me, but what I'm doing is just cutting down on my meat intake as a whole, I don't really want to be eating full meals of meat for awhile. So, don't give me a hard time about this, because I know you probably think it's lame, but it's working for me.

Oh, in case someone thought Katie Pirtle and I were still doing bad, that's changed and everything has calmed down.

Happy Easter!

Katie // 12:19 PM

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February 24, 2005

I'm doing fine, nothing too exciting going on. I'm just lazy, as usual.

Katie // 8:55 PM

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February 11, 2005

I can't even wake up in the mornings anymore. I love going in to the gym in the mornings, but I've been finding excuses every morning this week. I even promised to go in today, and of course I didn't go. Maybe I'll start on monday? maybe not...who knows. I'm so lazy. School is absolutely pointless and college is stressing me out. I just want to get the whole thing over with.

I don't understand my friendship with Katie P. anymore. She treats me like crap when she's with Antonio at school, and then she'll call me on the weekends to hang out, and I just don't know what the deal is. They started picking off their close friends one at a time, and I think I'm probably next. They've just been excluding me and making me feel like dirt. They're going to a play tonight that I really wanted to go to, but when I asked to go they just kind of gave me a look and changed the subject like they do with everyone they don't want to hang out with. I didn't bother after that. It just pisses me off so much because Katie has turned into such a jerk when I'm trying to be nice to her and Antonio. I feel really displaced at school lately. I hate hanging out in the drama room, I can't really hang with Daniel because I don't really know/get along with his friends, I always have Sam and Miguel but I don't really get along with the rest of that group really well, and other than that I don't think I have anyone. I feel like such a whiner, or I'm overracting, but it hurts. It's my senior year and I can't even find a place I'm comfortable. It's all business for me, and I don't think I've ever had a group there that I really enjoy being with. People like me and enjoy my company, I'm aware of that, but I still don't feel fully accepted anywhere. I just wish I could find someone with the same interests as me. Cently was about it, but she has so many other friends that I can't even figure out how to work myself into that. I love the close friends I have now, but I wish I had a consistent group. I wish I didn't feel so weak and lonely sometimes. I wish I could have fit in with my peers in high school. I wish I didn't act so immature all the time. Why can't I just be myself at school? I know I act so different at school and it pisses me off. I don't like the way I act there, I feel like such a fool speaking up in class and making jokes. I want someone to get the balls to tell me to shut up. I expect too much.

God, I feel like crap tonight.

Katie // 9:35 PM

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